Archive for April, 2002

My Senior Will – 04.16.02

Tuesday, April 16th, 2002

This is the written version of my Alpha Chi Omega senior will that I presented at dinner tonight. Of course I didn’t read it word for word, but you can get the basic idea this way.

When I thought about presenting my senior will I realized that a lot of people would be listening. Probably the only other time I have addressed the entire chapter was when I was the warden last spring. And then it was mostly just yelling. But that comes with the territory. To make sure that that isn’t the only thing I am remembered for, I have a few gifts for my sisters who have meant so much to me.

About three years I ago I bought a cake at Publix for my little sister Katherine’s birthday table. A plastic cake cutter accompanied it. This was after I got an ice cream cake for Liz Lebruto, another family member, and broke the cake cutter I had trying to cut it while it was still frozen. So the cake cutter was brand new for Katherine’s birthday table that year and it has served our family well ever since. The last thing I want to do is diminish the importance of this cake cutter throughout the years, but we can’t expect it to last forever. So I am leaving a new, and somewhat sturdier, cake cutter to my remaining family members (Melissa, Catherine, and Tonya) for use at birthday tables in the future.

A couple of weeks into the spring semester my roommate Amy discovered “Little Women.” I would come home to find her, curled up in a blanket, watching it very intently. She has probably seen the movie ten times during the semester and is always asking to borrow my video for another viewing. Just after her birthday I realized that the perfect gift for her would have been “Little Women” on DVD. I realized that senior wills were coming up soon so I saved the present for this occasion. We won’t be roommates for much longer so I don’t want her to be without “Little Women” when my video collection is no longer at her disposal. Actually, I already gave her the DVD because I didn’t think she would be here tonight but the sentiment is still the same – something to remember me by.

When I was considering my senior will I thought of a gift that more than one sister would appreciate. This morning I put a brand new bath mat in the Suite 5 bathroom as a parting gift from me. I wrote “Suite 5” on the bottom in permanent to make sure everyone knows where it was intended to stay. A clean, dry bathmat is nice under your feet after a shower. Remember girls, it’s machine washable so do your part in keeping it clean and dry by putting it in the wash when you get a chance.

So after five years I only have three tangible gifts that I wanted to pass on. My intention was to leave a small legacy so that my presence here won’t be totally forgotten, but I want to keep everything else for myself.

Top Ten Reasons I Chose UCLA – 04.11.02

Thursday, April 11th, 2002

Quote of the Day:
“Look’s like Heaven’s easier to get into than Arizona State!”
Ned Flanders, “The Simpsons”

Top ten reasons I chose UCLA for graduate school:
10) I’m already used to the LA traffic
9) Beverly Hills is where I was destined to live anyway
8 ) I already know that I look good in blue
7) LA will have many aerospace job possibilities when I graduate
6) I was accepted there
5) It is highly ranked by US News and World Report
4) The tuition is less than at Stanford
3) There’s a possibility I will get some financial aid
2) I liked the people I met when I visited there in October
1) To find out what a Bruin is

Thoughts on a Sunday – 04.07.02

Sunday, April 7th, 2002

Quote of the Day:
“I love X-Files too. I hope we get to see it again.”
“Independence Day” (after the aliens are spotted)

While I was at Best Buy yesterday looking for a present, I wandered through the small selection of videos and found “Independence Day” for $6.99. Although it wasn’t the widescreen version, which I have on my amazon.com wish list, I knew I would never be able to find the movie that cheap again so I bought it. Last night was probably the first time I had seen “Independence Day” since it was released in 1996 and I had forgotten how great it was. At times I was actually so spellbound by the fight against alien invaders that I found my mouth was hanging open. I got chills from Bill Pullman’s “today we declare our independence” speech just like when I saw it in the theater. Not that “Independence Day” was a gleaming example of movie brilliance, but it captivated me. That’s not too impressive considering that I am one of the gullible moviegoers that the industry loves. I have discovered that my thought processes are very shallow during a movie and I am easily taken in by a good show.

Yesterday at about 11 AM Amy got a phone call and we found out some horrible news. Carolina Madiedo, one of our sorority sisters, was killed in a car accident on Friday night. Another sister was also in the car and she is still in the hospital in Orlando. The news came suddenly and the house wasn’t a very comfortable place to be yesterday. Being around my sisters who had known Carolina well was difficult for me since I didn’t think I had even met her. I looked at the composite in the foyer that displays a picture of each sister but I didn’t recognize the face with Carolina’s name printed underneath. With almost 150 sisters in our house, and my poor retention of names and faces, I never manage to get to know everyone in a pledge class before the next one arrives. Anyway, the prevalent mood here was somber yesterday. Whether or not I had ever met Carolina I felt depressed because everyone else was.

I’m sure that was one reason I had a nightmare. I went to sleep feeling cranky and still depressed but I woke up this morning feeling worse. Have you ever thought about how you would react to a horrible situation? At times I think about how I would handle something if it happened, but I never knew exactly how I would feel until I had a particular dream last night. I hope I never have to go through that experience in reality because it made me crazy. Although it was just going on in my head, my body was reacting as if the events were real. I opened my eyes as the emotions took effect but I wasn’t ready for the nightmare to be over. Wanting to know how the situation would be resolved made me close my eyes again and try to continue the vision. But it was gone. And without the ending that I craved. After I resolved that the dream was completely over my first thought was, “Now I know how I would react if that happened.” I consider that knowledge to be priceless but it was not easy to come by. Even after most of the nightmare has faded from my memory I am still haunted by the way it made me feel.

Less than one month until graduation. While I was at home last weekend I prepared all of my graduation announcements and my parents dropped them in the mail a few days ago. I can pick up my cap and gown at the bookstore starting April 22 and my last week of final exams at the University of Florida ends May 3. My parents are coming to Gainesville three out of the next four weekends. One is because Gainesville is on the way home from a tennis tournament (April 13), one is for a Women’s Chorale performance (April 19), and one is for graduation (May 4). With all of the packing I have to do before I leave for California (May 15) I wish I could spend one of those weekends in Tallahassee instead of here. In four weeks I will be a college graduate. Too bad I won’t get my degree in the mail until six weeks later.

Goofing Off – 04.04.02

Thursday, April 4th, 2002

Quote of the Day:
“It can giggle all it wants, but the galaxy’s not getting any of our Bourbon.”
Commander Tucker, “Enterprise”

At least something good is happening on “Days of Our Lives” today. Sammy and Austin’s second wedding turned out pretty much the same as the first one several years ago. Namely, the marriage never took place. It’s good to know that some things never change. Thursday is the only day of the week that I don’t have class during “Days” so I appreciate an exciting plotline when I am actually around to watch.

After spending most of yesterday, when I wasn’t in class, studying for my third biology test of the semester I made myself go to bed at 3:30 AM. My alarm went off at 7 AM, but I probably would have slept through the exam if Amy hadn’t come home at 7:45 AM and woken me up. The first thing that ran through my mind when I realized I had a test in forty-five minutes was, “Maybe if I stay in bed this whole thing will just go away.” Fortunately I was able to counter the urge to drift back into dreamland. The second thing that ran through my mind was,” What’s the difference between substrate-level phosphorylation and oxidative phosphorylation?” Then I panicked because I couldn’t answer that question and I knew it would be on the test. In the end the exam wasn’t nearly as bad as I thought it would be and I can stop thinking about biology for a while.

I have devoted today to goofing off. Starting at 9:30 AM when I got back from my test, at least. The first thing I did was finish reading “Princess in Love,” the third book in the Princess Diaries series by Meg Cabot. If you haven’t read any of these books (and you are female) I would highly recommend them for their witty and amusing writing. Of course these stories are fictional, but I wish I could keep a diary as detailed as Mia’s. Considering you are reading my diary right now you realize that this is just not happening in my case. I’m also not the princess of a small European country and that might have something to do with it.

The next method of relaxation that I tried this morning was shopping therapy. (Sadly, I heard this phrase on a Pier One commercial with Kirstie Alley.) I ordered a bunch of t-shirts from delias.com since I have had such a hard time finding any that I like in the stores. When I clicked the “check out” button I was quite surprised at the total price that showed up. It was more than I expected, but the chance that everything will fit is very small. More than likely I will have to return something and that will lower the eventual charge on my credit card. And if all of the shirts do fit I will be so happy that the cost won’t matter anymore. So one way or another it’s no big deal.

The crossword puzzle is hard today. Usually I spend some time working on the “Alligator” (UF student newspaper) crossword to relax between classes. Sometimes I can finish the whole thing in ten minutes but today is not one of those times.

So now I am sitting on the floor of my room, watching the end of “Days of Our Lives,” and thinking of the things I need to do. Today is Amy’s twenty-third birthday so there are flowers, balloons, and gifts everywhere. I volunteered to arrange a birthday table for her at dinner tomorrow so I have to go pick up the cake and decorations tonight. Let’s just hope I can find a parking space close to the house when I get back. Walking too far with the cake could have disastrous results. Other things on the “to do” list are studying for a computational linear algebra quiz tomorrow and taping the newest episode of “Enterprise” tonight.

I have really enjoyed “Enterprise” since it started last fall. Just like books, TV shows are appealing to me when the characters have personality and history that give them more depth than a face on the screen. I have learned to love some characters on “Enterprise” and appreciate the ones that I wasn’t crazy about to begin with. That’s a sign of good writing.

So now that I have employed writing as yet another form of relaxation I think it has done its job. I managed to write about several things that have been on my mind lately while avoiding the biggest issue. It won’t be long before I have to decide where I am going to graduate school, but I would like to avoid thinking about it at the moment. Since I have devoted today to goofing off I am going to try and find another relaxing pastime before I have to go and get the birthday stuff for Amy. Maybe a nap is the way to go.