Written on 5/20:
Self-care comes in many forms, both mental and physical. Tonight I sat down and wrote a long webpage post rather than doing numerous other chores that were waiting for me before the end of the weekend. And in the end, hitting publish was better for my soul than having all the little aspects of my life fully in place for Monday morning. It’s gotten very quiet in Seal Beach as midnight approaches and I know I should have gotten into bed a long time ago, but here I am with my laptop still on my lap. It brings me comfort in a way that nothing else can. Finding the words to document my thoughts and feelings is so cathartic, and it just doesn’t happen that often. The constant stresses of life often prevent me from being in the proper head space to write more than a couple of decent sentences at a time. just about every night I sit down in my final hour or so before going to sleep and hope that the words will flow into an eloquent paragraph that I can share with the world. But more often than not I find myself staring at the WordPress interface and not even knowing where to start. My brain and heart are so full, but I lack the skill or the motivation to transcribe anything meaningful. Unless there’s a new sunscreen to review – then I’m in my element! It seems so shallow to expound upon the virtues (or lack of them) of a cream or lotion that protects my annoyingly delicate skin from the ravages of the sun, but that subject has inspired so many posts. On the other hand, when it comes to my innermost workings I regularly can’t get past the blinking cursor in a blank box. That doesn’t stop me from trying though! There are probably some writing exercises that could help me with that, but I feel like I already have enough going on in my life. Currently I am endeavoring to remove all unnecessary stressors from my routine. I am giving myself permission to allow anything that doesn’t absolutely have to get done to fall by the wayside. Life is too short for nonessentials, and happiness is more important than having all my chores done. I’m nearly 40 and finally figuring out my life!
Added on 5/26:
P.S. This is remarkably eloquent considering my Ambien was kicking in when I wrote it!
The first month of 2017 has come and gone. Usually I love January, even with the usual mild case of the post-holiday blues, but this year it was a little uneven for me. On one hand I had the once-in-a-lifetime experience of successfully completing my first marathon at Disney World so that was absolutely amazing. But then I got sick shortly after getting back from Orlando and the rest of the month was basically a disaster. I missed a lot of work, my fitness routine was all but abandoned (I haven’t gone to the gym since January 6th), and I’ve eaten more comfort food than I’d like to admit. Luckily things are starting to turn around. I’m finally getting healthy and I’ve started running again (my 4 miles tonight weren’t pretty, but I’m improving). Hopefully I’ll make it back to boot camp on Friday too. It’s going to be a rough road to get back in shape, but I’m glad to be getting started. February is going to be better than January, I’m sure. I already have a lot of plans with friends and running buddies that I’m looking forward to. Traditionally my blogging tapers off in February, but I’m going to try to keep it up in 2017. I’m really enjoying writing on a regular basis and I hope there’s at least one person out there who enjoys reading it. Here’s to eleven more months of 2017!
It’s November 1st and that means National Blog Posting Month 2016 has begun! My attempts to update my webpage every day in November have been utter failures for the last few years so we’ll see if I can be any more successful this year. It’s not that I don’t have a lot to write about this time of year with race season starting and all of my favorite holiday excitement, but finding time to do so is the real problem. It doesn’t help that I’m on week 9 of my marathon training program right now which includes 24 miles of running, and my weekly mileage is only going to increase as the month progresses. So I have no idea if I’ll actually be able to post something all 30 days in November, but at least I’m going to try.
November 1st also means it’s time to shift focus from Halloween celebrations to Thanksgiving preparations! The last few days of October – including the Rock ‘N’ Roll Los Angeles half marathon, my annual chili cook-off at work, and trick or treating with friends – were busy, but a lot of fun. I’ll write more about those activities in another post (gotta save something for later this week!). But now that we’re into the second to last month of the year it’s time to exchange all of the jack-o-lanterns for turkeys! I actually put up my Halloween decorations on October 2nd, unlike last year when I was negligent with my holiday revelry until early December. Since my Thanksgiving decorations are scarce I may leave my Halloween items out until I unpack all of the yuletide decor. At least the pumpkins. The last three months of the year are my favorite so why not enjoy them as much as possible? Speaking of which, it’s time to go plug in my string of pumpkin lights for a little ambiance on this lovely fall evening!
It’s been so long since I posted anything but pictures. Every weekend I sit down in front of my laptop with the intent of writing a post, but then I manage to find a reason to not follow through. There’s always something else I could be doing, whether that activity is more interesting than writing or not, so I put off a new post for at least another week. In my defense it’s been an amazingly busy summer so far! That doesn’t excuse my absence, though. There’s no way I’ll ever catch up on all of the stuff that’s been going on since April when I published my last substantial post. Maybe I’ll still give it a try. But right now it’s time for me to get changed so I can go for a run. Today is the last day of Boeing on the Move 2016 and I want to finish strong! Without the burden of the pedometer I might have a little more free time coming up soon. We’ll see how it goes!